timing

Ya know ... no one ever does what you want them too. Certainly not die. Now don't get me wrong. I don't expect people to die on a schedule. But doesn't it always seem like you have other plans then end up having to change everything around to go ...

Terry's uncle who taught him everything he knows about fishing died last night. So we'll be going to visitation tomorrow night and funeral the next day. Course we had PLANNED on Terry going to the dentist and taking Nat to grandma's to spend the summer. Now we'll have to wait until the 2nd of June. Which is probably better anyways since we don't really have the money to do it this week anyways.

I really hate the idea of funerals. I really hate the idea of this one. Not because I don't like his family ... I really honestly do. What I hate is being the outsider. I don't know most of his family but the ones I have met have been really nice to me. I don't like funerals in the first place but to go to my boyfriend's family's funeral ... I don't know. I'm not sure I feel good about it. Of course if he wants me to go I'll be happy to stand by and support him. Not that he needs it. But I know when my grandfather died it was nice to have my boyfriend with me. We weren't married yet but we later married. He was there to hold me and let me cry though even though my grandfather didn't like him. LOL

I just don't like funerals. I won't expect Terry to go to my grandmother's when she passes. He HATES them but I don't know how he feels about it. I'm not even sure if he wants me to go.